the life of a deviant mind

darkthoughts

happy birthday kishni.

happy birthday kishni.

happy birthday, happy birthday.

happy birthday to you...

i was on leave from work today. but a colleague sent me a test message saying that all writers and recorders in the company i work - correction, worked - are retrenched. it's funny. i lost my job without even knowing it. bwahahaha!!!

honestly, i don't know what and how to react. am i happy? am i sad? i'm not sad. i've been planning to resign this december. however, plans are still plans... it was difficult for me to quit because i loved my job. but what happened today gave me freedom.

i am sad for the company. complaints would rain on them.

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it is weird... this entry only appeared today, december 3.

it's weird. i published an entry this morning. i was sure that it was already posted. i was sure that i made it. then when i visited my blog just now, it disappeared. i hope this entry won't be gone the next day.

but as i've said in that entry, all the writers and recorders in the company i worked with were all retrenched. i don't know how to feel . i'm not exactly sad, i'm not exactly happy. i just feel free.

i also feel anxious for the company. the management just declared war on the people.

jeez... i just arrived last night from cebu. and right now, i'm playing the role of the damsel in distress. i don't know where to go, where to stay, what to do, how to start. can i just bang my head on the wall?

and i'm definitely missing my kid and my home...